I was caught up in pornography from the time that I was 10 years old until I was 36. It developed into a massive addiction after I discovered internet-pornography and it consumed most of my free- time.<\/p>\n
Instead of satisfying my inmost needs, it drove me into deeper misery, bondage and isolation. When I was 19 years old I decide to give my life back to God and experienced great change in many areas.<\/p>\n
Since then I have tried hard to know God better and because of this have experienced much inner-healing. My sexual life though, was always my weak point.<\/p>\n
Several things have happened that have helped me to get free.<\/p>\n
First of all I realised that things could not go on as they were. The next step was to bring everything out into the open.<\/p>\n
When I went public with my addiction to my church leaders and my house group, I was not cured but much of the destructive elements were removed. It was important to look at sexuality in a positive light and to understand what a precious gift it is. The important key for me was to discover that what I had sought in pornography had long since been provided by God.<\/p>\n
Pornography only numbed my inner emptiness and the painfully deep need for fulfilment\u00a0which can so seldom to be found in this life.<\/p>\n
When I experienced that only God could satisfy this deep longing and in a way that was more lasting than anything else, I was able to let go of the former things.<\/p>\n
Once I had found the “real thing” I was finally free from the destructive “copy”.<\/p>\n
Now I am experiencing an incredible upsurge in my quality of life. It is a wonderful present, no longer to be governed by my sexuality but to be able to handle it in a responsible manner.<\/p>\n
This is without painful abstention, “cold showers” or self-castration. It is possible with God’s help and a little discipline, to remain free. When God fills our soul we are no longer dependent on useless crutches.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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