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It started with the Sports Illustrated swimsuit issue. I grew up in a Christian home and accepted Christ at an early age. However there were some problems in our family which included sexual abuse, and I learned to cope by using sex for comfort and love.


”What I don’t want to do, that I do”- I can identify with this verse all too well. As a youth group leader, I came across really well to many people and at the same time, for ten years, I had been consuming porn, sometimes until late in the night.


I was caught up in pornography from the time that I was 10 years old until I was 36. It developed into a massive addiction after I discovered internet-pornography and it consumed most of my free- time.

Pornography – An issue only for men?

I accidentally fell into the trap of pornography when I was 12 years old and at the stage when most teenagers usually experience inner turmoil! In my innocence, not knowing all that was involved, at first I was shocked and at the same time fascinated by what I found on this subject, I felt a pleasant sensation within which filled me with shame at the same time.

My sexual drive arose early

My sexual drive arose at a very early age and became my comfort and fulfilment. As I was born in 1953 my parents were already divorced. Alcohol and my father's adultery were the constant companions in our family.

Healing a broken marriage

Picture taking a 9" stiletto knife, and then plunging into your wife's back, all the way to the hilt. Then as she screams in pain and horror at the recognition that you, her best friend have stabbed her, you say "I'm sorry. Can you please get over this quickly?"

The destructive force of adultry

I had been binging on porn daily, and had lost all control to stop. Prior to getting married in 1989, I'd assumed that having marital sex would resolve my problem with lust, but a year into our marriage I succumbed to the pull again.

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